it's hard for me to write this but i have to.. it's not that i don't want listen to you.. but i got carried away with my stubbornness. yes, i'm stubborn as a mule. u were right, your only intention was to get me to work.. 3 years been working here and teaching and training, i think those make me complacent. to tell you the truth, you want me to wake up early and go to work while i, on the other hand love to receive your text and tell me to get ready.. and i know you've been doing that for only-God-knows-how-long.. and i am sorry B.. i am truly sorry for making you stress. it wasn't my intention at all... i never thought that me going to work late is actually causing you stress. i didn't see the reason lies behind it.. now i think i know.. you care about me.. a lot.. i did not see that coz maybe i hate that place so much.. and i know u r my only problem listener coz i never share it with anyone else but you. i tell you every single thing.. every single thing.. up to " B bulb lampu i terbakar"
do you know why? coz i love you so much!! yes i love you very much..and i'm lost without you. you have done a lot for me, and i'm very grateful for that.. after prayers, i always pray for you ..always.. of course i never tell you this coz there's no reason. you do it for someone that u love and care so much..you have no idea every time i wake up, i am blessed and thankful that i have you by my side..
i'm sorry B.. i really am.. you have no idea how i feel.. T____T i'm like a zombie, walking around.. i really love you B.. so much... i know u've heard this thousands times.. but i'm sorry.. i really am :( . every time i wanna close my eyes and try to sleep, my heart cries.. it's painful B... it's very painful...
" i won't give up on us
even if the skies get rough
i'm giving you all my love
i'm still looking up "
i wanna write more of what i feel..but i can't..you know why...
p/s: i really hate when we fight.. i hate it so much :( B org xnak gaduh lg x____x
Love,
your sayang
